Thursday, November 12, 2009
A wonderful surprise and nightmare follows after
i knew i don't deserve to be that happy.
let me summaries it:
what do i get..
1 betrayer,
5 fuckers,
2 i can't trust you anymore.
Just feeling pathetic,
they don't care, those hurt you, others back stabbed.
just seem like a joke to them, I'm afraid they have other intentions too.
someone that they can toy around with, they don't remember I'm human anymore.
good life, have fun.
Just wanted to talk,
once again, you opened and closed the door.
you didn't let me in long enough to heal.
should i be glad you didn't slam it this time?
but you told me something that I'll always remember.
thank you.
leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 2:14 PM.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
JW called ask me to hang out,
more like a no-tih. fuck shit.
damn, if i would have know i wouldn't have said anything.no i believe you don't know, you can't fucking read my thoughts.Go have your fun, maybe it will make me think of what i truely want for a while...take all this crap your giving me back.if you want it this way you will have it.i'm sick and tired of feeling fustrated.
leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 2:40 PM.
whats' inside?
i don't know how to say....
you dun seem to know.
nobody. nth.
finishing up the project.
i hope i can make it till the deadlines.
take it all. leave it.
it all seems familiar.....
leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 2:34 PM.
Monday, July 13, 2009
a pull. a push. a bruise and nothing more.
just the coldness.
i need to find myself through all this madness.
i need to go back to the start.
i need to sort everything.
called up people that i kinda left behind.
yes, and i still have no clue on what i was.
leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 3:13 PM.
I wished you were here...
i'm just overwhelmed with everything.
i know i said nothing.
[i don't see the need to.]
so i brokedown, got nowhere to go.
where was i again?
right. just pathetic.
leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 3:08 PM.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
I couldn't remember when was the last time I actually posted...
(it just says everything.)so i finally got over the emo phrase,
i've gotten a hell lot more cheerful.
this is what i have been basically doing:
hang out, skip school, attending classes, going for test, fyp-ing.
Then Hoho actually smack the reality back into me;
considering the letter that states:
"your child/ward attendance for this semester is CRAP!!"
might be arriving at my doorstep any moment.....
I should seriously seriously go for classes.
Its my fucking last year.
PULL THROUGH, GET IT OVER AND DONE WITH.!!
After this last lesson this friday it would be the two weeks HOLIDAYS!!!
so its all honjin, birthday set ups, fyp and hangout.
OHOHOH...
GONNA RENT CAR!!!!
and we are going for a two days spin!!!
ANDRO HUNT... to go or not to go?
leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 11:53 PM.
